The Year I Lost Someone, But Found Myself
When was my life the most out of control? I like to control my life. I love planning ahead, organizing things, writing down what happened during my day, and most importantly, having no interruptions. Having a sense of order gives me comfort. But I remember one time in my life when I completely lost control. It was the time when a former lover ghosted me. It was my first year living abroad. I was living alone, discovering things by myself, and learning how to survive in a completely new environment. It was an adventure. Everything felt new and exciting. I learned many things for the first time, explored places I had never been to, and even found someone who I thought would change my life forever. Until he left. It was one of the most miserable feelings I had ever experienced. It happened near the end of summer, around September 2016. My heart sank every single day. I couldn't smile. I couldn't focus. The only question that kept repeating in my mind was: “Why?” I had no answers. ...
